Regrets, I have a few. But then again, too few to mention. That famous Frank Sinatra phrase went through my mind last week during one of my many hours in the tractor. One cannot help but to let their mind wander as you are rolling down the field at 9.5mph. Unlike Frank, I have enough regrets, too many to list. We all do. You regret not doing something in life, you regret doing something in life. Sometimes those are the same things, and you are damned if you do and damned if you don't. One of my regrets that I thought of this week was not calling my parents enough. I used to drive by my mom's place about once a week depending on where I was traveling for work. But I was so busy that I did not always stop by. I now regret not stopping by more often.
What is your biggest regret in life? Something you did, or something you wish you hadn't done? Mine has to do with how I treated the love of my life. Young and dumb, an unkind word, an unkind act, seeing the hurt in someone's eyes is gut wrenching, knowing you are the reason for that hurt will suck the life right out of you. I wish I could go back in time an undo some things I have said and done over the years. But there is no going back, just moving forward. Both Barb and I choose to look at the bright side of things, not dwell on the negative. That is probably the attribute I love most about her, she always chooses to smile and look at the sunshine instead of the rain. And should it rain, she will say something like "We need a little precipitation". As any farmer knows, you need both sun and rain in order for things to grow and I like where Barb and I are right now. Had there been no bumps in the road would be where we are right now? It was a bump in the road that prompted us to make what is probably the biggest decision of our lives. We were both working fulltime, too many hours, making decent money when we decided we needed a change, and we set forth a multi-year plan to sell our home and all (well, most) of our worldly possessions, by a 5th wheel and hit the road. Looking back, I can honestly say it is the best thing we have ever done bringing us closer than we had ever been.
Okay, I am going to jump off my philosophical soapbox now and talk about real farming. We need rain, and we need it bad! With over 3,000 acres of seed in the ground it is time. We have had the promise of rain, but not a promise kept. Regardless, the seeds are starting to grow, sucking what moisture Mother Nature left us from the now distant snowfall. They go out to the fields almost every day to check, are the seeds germinating? Are the weeds growing? This is the most critical time for the seeds, once they are established, they have a fighting chance and keeping the weeds back helps them with that fighting chance.
To see if the seeds are germinating you go out to the field and carefully dig in a row to find a single seed and inspect it. You would think with 2.4 million seeds per acre they would not be hard to find, but they can be. This is what you are looking for.... These two picture are wheat, the first being about 1/2" sprout. This is what a single wheat seed looks like before it emerges from the ground.

We have moved on from wheat and peas to Canola. Tiny, tiny little seed. The bag the canola seed comes in has a label that states it has a minimum of 85 million seeds in it. I was going to count them and see if they shorted us at all, but lost count after all my fingers and toes.
With less than a week of my time here remaining, it does not look like we will get everything in the ground before my departure, but all darn it, we are going to try!
Thank you for bringing modern farming to life. A bit different from the 1950s in Newfoundland. The critters are amazing. Hope you final week is productive, safe and you have a good drive home.
ReplyDeleteThanks! 5 days left before I head home!
DeleteI like your ruminations about regrets and how we can regret both the things that we have done and the things that we have not done.
ReplyDeleteWith some things that's the way it goes and you just can't win!
DeleteI do have a few regrets but marrying a Cowboy isn't one of them! I too traveled for a living when Mike and I married but he semi-retired when he turned 62 and I retired when I turned 54. So we've been together 24/7 for most of that time. A friend asked me once didn't I feel "smothered?" What!! No, I feel loved! That roofing business does sound like hard work--be careful on roofs!
ReplyDeleteFor the most part, Barb are together 24/7, except when I am at the farm. The older I get, the harder it is to leave her for weeks on end.
DeleteWith my family being involved in the farming industry, I can say that those tiny sprouts are a Blessing to see for sure. Gorgeous fowl up in your area...would love to see a pheasant out in the fields. Regrets...I do have a few in life, but as far as the love of my life, I would do it all over again and again....Have a fantastic weekend and week ahead..
ReplyDeleteI am trying to think of fowl that you have down there that I would like to see. Gambel's or California quail perhaps? Both are cool little birds. Sounds like you know and appreciate the hard work that goes into raising a crop.
DeleteOur main regret is not winning the lottery! 🤣 I always find your description of the daily life of a farmer interesting as well as the local wildlife. I bet you’re looking forward to getting home where you can relax working on your own projects. 😉 Stay safe!
ReplyDeleteThat garage is waiting patiently for me back home. My body is telling me to take a few days to work on it, but my mind wants to hit it hard when I get home. I have a feeling my mind will win out!
DeleteFarmers are used to it. It's why we all had ulcers. The more you are away, the more you appreciate what you have ... and that's why we all turned up the volume on our tiny little portable radios in the cab.
ReplyDeleteI was totally picturing a younger version of you in the cab of a tractor tuning in your portable transistor radio trying to get a good station to tune in!
DeleteI am sure everyone, including me has regrets, things we wish we didn't do or things we wish we did do. There are always what if's. I try to stay positive. I love all the birds and the moose, great sightings and photos. Good luck finishing the planting.
ReplyDeleteHave a great weekend.
All you can do is learn from them and move on, living in the past and living that regret does no one any good at all.
DeleteOh yes regrets I have just a few. I think that is normal..we just have to try to do better!
ReplyDeleteI think the better comes with age and looking back! Knowing what mistakes you made...and sharing the wisdom! Five more days there on the farm...hope they are good days, that roofing is a young mans job for sure. We have steel roofs on all the buildings here, I helped sheet them about 25 years ago when I was younger but I hate height work. My husband did the house roof by himself, he rigged up a rope system:)
I have a garage roof waiting for me back home, but luckily, the sheets are only 13' rather than these 20'ers!
DeleteYes, being married for nearly 48 years this summer, we all have a lot of regrets on things we did and did not do. But as you said, we would not have the lovely life we have now without the choices that were made. Selling everything off and hitting the road in June 2012 was a major change for us too, after Ray's third back surgery. Most of it great, some not so much, but heh, we survived and are better for it. Now off the road and back into a house we are closer than ever. I think without some adversity it is hard to thrive. Safe travels back home.
ReplyDeleteYou guys have seen and done so much since 2012! And you continue to do it, but now you are just flying. Keep doing what you are doing!
DeleteThose little wheat sprots look a lot like tiny green onions, growing into waves of grain soon enough.
ReplyDeleteThose brilliant fields of canola are a favorite to drive past.
Very nice critter photos! Have you seen the owls again?
Have you ever seen a flax field in total bloom? They too are magnificent, especially when they are adjacent to a canola field!
DeleteAh yes, regrets. Luckily very few. But you learn, grow, move forward and not repeat. Farm life looks rewarding. Enjoy your last days. Bring on the most and fish pics!
ReplyDeleteYou will need to wait a month or so for those fish pictures, but we have a couple of trips planned this summer!
DeleteWe need rain too! (Northern Alberta) You reminded me of my (few) years on the tractor (as a teen & university student) and how much I enjoyed that thinking time.
ReplyDeleteMy biggest regret? I have lots of regrets, but the biggest one was not giving someone a ride home, once; decisions sometimes have much bigger consequences than you realize at the time. But you learn from them. And in your case, you get a do-over and what's better than that?
Yes, those are tough regrets that many of us have been challenged with throughout our lives. Do overs are good and hopefully we become better people because of them.
DeleteThat last picture is gorgeous. I love all the critters you got pictures of. I do have a few regrets.
ReplyDeleteYou should do a post of the wild critters in your neighborhood! Wait, you already do! But I was thinking the four-legged kind, there has to be some running around there.
DeleteI always enjoy all your information on the farming life and any critter pictures. This time you sent me on a google search on Hungarian partridges because they look just like my gray partridges. Apparently they are so close they seem interchangeable. I even saw them listed as Hungarian/Grays. The gray partridge has eight subspecies but it never mentioned Hungarian? Very confusing...but I like to think they are the same as the ones who visit me. :)
ReplyDeleteI thought of you when I saw those partridge. I have always known them has Huns, but you are right, I think they are one in the same. Very cute little birds!
DeletePraying for rain for Farmer Bob and all other Farmers. As for the answer to: "What is your biggest regret in life?" Wouldn't tell ANYONE, not sure the statute of limitations has passed on that one.... LOL
ReplyDeleteI too will not tell anyone my deepest regrets, that is the penance for committing them, you have to keep them to yourself and live with the consequences.
DeleteGreat to be visiting again after my blogging break. A super and interesting post as always. I guess we all have our regrets. None of us are perfect. We just learn from them and become better people for it. There are always a few who don’t but then I have always steered clear of them - life is too short to deal with their nonsense. I think I read that somewhere :) Happy Month of May to you and Barb.
ReplyDeleteLife is way to short to deal with mean and negative people. I ran into my first really mean and vindictive person several decades ago now. I used to think people were generally good until I ran into this person.
DeleteRegrets, yes. I have a few. Two of mine are the same as yours. Not seeing my parents enough and when I've been a meanie to the hubby. (But of course that was all so long ago-grin). And it is exciting to see seeds grow. I can't imagine the excitement on such a huge scale. I get excited about them growing in a small plot or pot. and I still can't get over those moose. Farming looks like a lot of hard work, and it's too bad people don't appreciate it and all the food they are provided with. Enough said for me. Don't work too hard this week.
ReplyDeleteYou can tell me not to work too hard, but it goes with the territory. I just think that I only have 4 more days, then my life can go back to its regularly scheduled program.
DeleteThere are certainly things I wish I had done differently, but I learned from them and got me to where I am today. Where I grew up, there we small family farms, but nothing big like you are helping with, so I find your work there interesting.
ReplyDeleteThat is a great approach to life and one that everyone should take!
DeleteYour reflections on regret really struck a chord — it’s so true how we can carry the weight of both the things we did and the chances we let slip by. That duality is something most of us wrestle with at some point.
ReplyDeleteWhich is a good thing as long as you use those incidents as learning lessons instead of things that hold you down and keep you from moving forward.
DeleteI enjoy your posts. It's a way of life I do not know. I grew up in inner city Toronto.
ReplyDeleteThe critters are wonderful.
Sounds like you have lived both sides of the fence when it comes to city and country living. I too have lived a bit of both and much more prefer the country life!
DeleteI echo Eileen's comment. ♥️ I love the moose 🫎 and the birds 🐦 as well. We all have regrets, and what I try to do is not dwell on them and look forward rather than do the should have, would have could have routine. I really enjoy your blog.
ReplyDeleteWhat a great philosophy in life. You should always look forward trying to be the best version of yourself.
DeleteIt's very exciting and interesting to read your report about the work on the farm and the farmer's heartfelt work when tending the fields... we as consumers don't think about it enough (- everything is always there, isn't it -), even though I live on the edge of the field and have a great interest in the seeds, the growth in the field, and the harvest... when the combine harvesters drive across the field in the fall, my heart leaps for joy.
ReplyDeleteBut for now, the rapeseed is in full bloom, and it's a dream all around my area.
Many greetings to you and thank you for your work... I bake my own bread from rye with sourdough.
Hugs
p.s. Great, you got them in the picture, the partridges... do you know the German fairy tale "Puss in Boots"?
It has been years since I have heard of Puss N Boots, so I went and read it again. I now know why the partridges reminded you of it. The reviews of the tale varied from a clever tale to one of disgust that a conniving cat would be so successful by being deceitful.
DeleteI've noticed that you always seem to get philosophical when you are at the farm. I imagine that if you spent more time there, you could write the next great novel, turn it into a Broadway show starring little people. Maybe 7 little people and a princess. Wait, that was already a flop. Never mind.
ReplyDeleteBut I would use real little people and mine would be more relatable to the general public, so I think it would be a great success!
DeleteIf no one had regrets he or she would be perfect but no one is perfect so everyone has regrets. My husband has a very positive outlook but I am not like that. Sorry to my honey! I do have faith that this imperfect world is not my forever home and that gives me hope (but I'm still a glass half empty kinda person). You can have our rain! We've had a lot and more is in the forecast. 85 million seeds is... a lot! Enjoy your last few days on the farm...
ReplyDeleteIf it were only that easy, they would be more than happy to take some of your rain! I am surprised to read that you are a glass half empty kind of person, after reading your blog for a couple a years now, you seem like a pretty positive person!
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ReplyDeleteHi Jim…Barb and I have a lot in common when it comes to seeing the bright side of what life has to offer. I have given it some thought before commenting, but it is really hard to come up with any regrets in my life thus far. I enjoyed teaching…a rewarding job to teach little ones how to read. I have enjoyed retirement thus far with full-time RVing for 10 years and buying our sticks and stucco in Tucson being the highlights.
That is hard work you do at the farm…it is so awesome how you just pitch in and do anything that is needed to be done there.
What a great approach to life!
DeleteWhile not every day is 12-hour days, I admire those that do this 365 days a year, year after year after year.
I have a few regrets in my life, mostly ones of omission, of not doing something. And I give myself grace when I think about them, for we all do or don't do things we regret.
ReplyDeleteI admire farmers so very much. Both sets of grandparents were farmers and worked very hard throughout their lives. Without farmers we would all starve to death.
Thank you for visiting my blog, and enjoy your time at the farm.
I wish I knew more about my grandparents. My grandparent on my mom's side was a surgeon, on my dad's side, I am not so sure. I know very little about him.
DeleteThe older and wiser I get, the more regrets I have. It's a shame I didn't regret more when I was younger but I was just too dumb to realize it then.
ReplyDeleteFarming isn't for the faint of heart.
Well said, that pretty much sums up almost everyone's regrets!
DeleteIt's truly inspiring how you’ve embraced both the philosophical and the practical aspects of life—whether reflecting on regrets and growth or diving into the realities of farm life. Your reflection on regrets resonates deeply; life’s bumps and detours often lead us to unexpected blessings, just like your decision to hit the road with Barb. It's beautiful to see how challenges have brought you closer together.
ReplyDeleteThe farming process you’ve described is a fascinating reminder of how much care and patience go into nurturing the land. From checking the seeds to the grueling work of re-steeling the machine shed, the hard work is evident. Your descriptions bring it all to life, making me appreciate the dedication that goes into every little sprout pushing through the soil. And those pheasants—what an elegant bird to be your favorite upland gamebird!
Wishing you and Barb all the best as you continue this adventure, and I hope that rain arrives soon to nurture the crops! www.melodyjacob.com
Damned if you do and damned if you don't sounds about right to me, I am sure there are things I regret doing or not doing, can't think of a damn thing right now though. Farming is a hard way of life and not something I could see myself doing, I enjoy sitting and watching the birds outside my front door.
ReplyDeleteI could use a few days of sitting and watching the birds right about now. In fact, I think I will do just that when I get home!
DeleteI love what you shared about you and Barb. It's sweet, wonderful and inspiring. I think we all have regrets. I regret being so hard on myself when I was younger. And not asking my parents questions I now wish I had.
ReplyDeleteYour farming things sound interesting and remind me of what we take for granted when we go to the market!
There are so many questions that I wish I would have asked my parents. And written them down! Lord knows, I would have probably forgotten most of what they told me.
DeleteYou are lucky Barb stuck around and kept on loving you. Hope you two keep on forgiving, forgetting and smiling.
ReplyDeleteI could not agree with you more!
Deletethough your blog, i have really "learned" how difficult farming is. you guys really work hard, at everything. that is a lot of seeds you have planted, wishing you much success!! i had a male pheasant in my yard once, i have pictures of it in one of the folders. regrets, i have a few...but i try not to dwell on it. i've had a great life and i am a very positive person!!
ReplyDeleteGood for you for not dwelling on your regrets and having a positive outlook on life, there are so many that don't and it just eats away at them.
DeleteI have to say most of my regrets were in my early years, one of the regrets not letting go of those sooner! I'd like to send some of this Santa Fe rain your way - we've had plenty the last few days. I'm always amazed not only by the amount of work on the farm, but by the variety each season! Never a dull moment for sure. Congrats on finally "getting your bird"!
DeleteEven though it is basically the same process every year, every year is different. New ground, new variety of seed, early or late, wet or dry. You are right about there never being a dull moment!
DeleteWishing you all the best for the much-needed rain for your crops. It's fascinating to see the early stages of the wheat and peas. Good luck with the canola planting and the final push before you leave. Those wildlife photos are a treat, especially capturing the elusive Hungarian Partridge
ReplyDeleteI too find it fascinating what all goes into getting a single seed into the ground and watching it grow throughout the year. Something almost all of us take for granted.
DeleteAs always, Jim, a great read. That one photo of the tractor at sundown is a keeper! As is that one pheasant picture. Nice capture.
ReplyDeleteAs for regrets...yes, some. I wish I had found a way to travel when I was younger, for example. Now everything hurts!
If we were to compare aches and pains today, I think I would have you beat. About every joint and muscle is killing me!
DeleteI sure wish we could send some of this rain to y'all. Our farmers are saying it is already too much here. Looks like you have been super busy on the farm. That's hard work, for sure! Regrets...ahh, I have MORE than a few! Haha! I am trying to give myself grace and remember that most of them were made when I was a teenager and knew nothing about the real world. I always made things harder than they had to be. I do love the bird photos! That meadowlark is so pretty!
ReplyDeleteGood for you for giving yourself grace on the regrets. Many of mine when I was younger too. If it were only that easy to move and trade rain, maybe someday!
DeleteThose birds are so pretty. I am not really a "bird watcher" but maybe I need to start.
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